The purpose of the appointment was to thoroughly assess my finances, in order to begin carving out the lifestyle I want while remaining financially stable and independent.
For the record, I did go ahead with the appointment, and I got tremendous value from it. But this is only one half of the equation.
In order to start travelling the world full-time, I need a flexible income working in a job which can be done from anywhere.
There are probably many ways to do this, but only one I’m really interested in.
I want to become a freelance writer.
Why freelance writing?
Writing has always been a passion. I’m a copywriter at Australia’s largest online travel agent – it’s literally already my day job.
But in my current job, I’m tied to my desk. I’m required to collaborate very closely with my team all day. Aside from this mandatory work-from-home period, I’d never get the green light to work remotely. Taking off to the other side of the world, choosing my own hours or working in a different time-zone as the rest of my team sounds like a dream for me and a massive headache for my employer.
All of this time in isolation has made me hyper-aware of my twenties slipping through my fingers.
In the last couple of years I’ve denied myself the life I truly wanted because I felt I should be finishing my degree, earning more money or gaining more experience in my chosen field of study.
Now, it’s looking like international borders may not open until well into 2021. How much more of my time will I waste coasting along?
I already know how to write. I just need to know how to freelance.
I have no idea how to come up with a story idea which I know people will be interested in reading. I don’t know how to pitch it to a publication, or how to bill them, or how to find interview subjects, or where best to get statistics and hard facts from.
Here in Melbourne, we’ve begun to peel back some of the lockdown restrictions. For the first time in a long time, I was able to visit one of my favourite parks and curl up on a blanket in the sun with my Kindle.
I have never seen so many people at this park in my entire life.
Families were everywhere; having picnics, riding bikes, sun-baking, reading, walking. Some people played music, most were laughing.
It’s the same at my local park where I walk in the afternoons – the number of dog-walkers, joggers and families flocking to the oval has increased ten-fold in the last few weeks.
With more time on our hands and fewer things to do to fill it with, exercise is on the rise – I know I’m certainly more active than I’ve ever been.
People are spending more time outdoors, as it’s the only place they can go.
I think it’s beautiful.
And I think, sadly, it will change when the restrictions are lifted further.
Everyone is itching to get back to normality. But maybe we need to ask ourselves the question – what aspects of ‘normal’ don’t serve us?
Although there are many things I’ve missed, I can think of a few that I hope have changed for good. Here are 5 things I won’t be rushing back to:
1. Skipping my daily dose of vitamin D
In our busy lives, one of the first things to often fall by the wayside is spending time outside in the fresh air and sun.
If you’re anything like me, your workday probably looks like this:
Get up at 5:30 am
An hour session at the gym
Get to work
Quickly scoff some lunch at midday
Back to work
The homebound commute in horrendous traffic
Walk through the door well after dark, scrap together some dinner and mindlessly watch something on Netflix in bed
I’m not just talking about getting some exercise at the park. I’m talking feet to the grass, drinking in the sounds, sights and smells of Mother Nature.
This time in isolation has helped me to realise that I’m happier outside.
2. Poor quality, distracted time with loved ones
Now that our restrictions have lifted to the point where we can visit family and friends in each others’ homes, I’ve woken to the fact that so much of the time I’ve spent with loved ones in the past is poor quality.
Whether it be going to the movies, having a Netflix night at home or meeting up for lunch just to bury ourselves in our phones in order to post it all over Instagram, we often spend time together without really spending time together. Without really being present.
The past two nights I’ve caught up with friends and we were so happy to see one another, we didn’t touch our phones or laptops or TV remotes once.
Just hours of laughter, stories and genuine connection.
3. Mindless spending, needless buying
With nowhere to go and nothing to do, my bank account has sat relatively untouched, aside from bills and living expenses.
And you know what? I’m don’t feel I’m missing out on anything. I don’t crave expensive takeout, or splurging on unnecessary knick-knacks or pieces of clothing.
In my version of ‘normal’, I buy food to eat even when I’m not hungry, just because it’s there. I treat myself to that extra cocktail on a night out, or to that dynamite dress that I don’t yet have an occasion for.
Since this period in lockdown, I’ve become perfectly comfortable with the things I have and I’m suddenly hyper-aware of how much I actually need.
4. Stifling my inner book-nerd
Oh, how I loved to read as a kid! Why is it that I barely do it anymore?
It’s always been something I’ve enjoyed, but not always something that I’ve made time for.
Why do I pass up a good book for another episode ofsome shitty reality TV show? Why do I deny myself one of life’s simple, yet incredibly worthwhile and transformative pleasures?
In isolation, I’ve found the time to fall in love with reading again and it’s something I’m determined to continue on the other side of this nightmare.
5. Writing for play, not just for work
I started this blog to keep a regular writing practice while the writing I usually do for my job was put on hold.
It’s been a long time since I’ve written freely – about my thoughts and feelings, about things that interest me.
In the beginning, I assumed this online diary would end as isolation did. But now, I’m not so sure I want it to.
I like blogging. I like stabbing away at the keyboard without wondering if it’s ‘good enough’ or if it will pay well. I like writing for me instead of for someone else.
So I think I will continue blogging – although, I suppose my blog will need a makeover once it’s no longer a diary of someone in iso.
Have you found any silver linings through this pandemic, or identified any ‘normal behaviours’ that you hope you don’t revert back to?
She speaks to me rudely, yells at me and slams doors around me.
I’ve been careful to pick my battles, to take the hit when I can because I know she’s got it tough right now. I know she is struggling.
But now, I’m struggling too.
On Saturday night we erupted in a fight which began with me asking her not to yell at me and ended with her threatening me with physical violence.
I got out of there in a hurry and stayed with a friend. I wasn’t there in the morning for our Mother’s Day breakfast.
I had to return to pick up some things I left behind. We spoke about the argument.
I acknowledged my part – the things I did wrong, and the things I should have done better – and apologised for it.
She refused to do the same.
I told her that in order to continue living with her, I needed to hear that she understood that the things she said and did were wrong, and she was sorry for them.
She would rather I move out than admit fault and apologise for threatening me with violence.
Of course, she made a point to tell me that I’d ruined Mother’s Day. And she has this way of spinning things so that it actually does feel like my fault.
This is called gaslighting.
And she’s always been extremely good at it.
So what happens now?
I suggested that we see a family counsellor together. She’s not interested.
She’s refuses to see a professional for her own mental health. I have booked an appointment for mine later this week.
I suggested that I stay at my dad’s place for a couple of nights, to have some space from one another and let the air clear. She says if I go, I can’t come back.
The friend who I stayed with the night of the fight – her dad is a mental health professional. He explained that it sounded like my mum was on the edge of a complete breakdown and that it wouldn’t be a good idea to leave her to live on her own in isolation.
So here I am, hiding in my room, avoiding her wrath. Eating the cookies that I bought for her on the worst Mother’s Day we’ve ever had.
Have you experienced a strained relationship with a parent or family member? I would love to hear any suggestions on how you managed it ❤️
I’ve found that since I began this blog, one thing I’ve struggled with is posting consistency.
This is a problem, as the whole reason I started the blog was to have a way to be consistently practising my writing while I’m in iso, and while my normal day job (as a copywriter for a travel agent) is not providing me much opportunity to do so.
I guess I romanticised the idea of keeping a blog – I saw myself rising early in the mornings and pouring my heart out over a strong cup of coffee while the world wakes up.
Or lounging in my backyard at sunset with a glass of red wine, penning some philosophical revelation which had come to fruition during my time in quarantine.
I’ve now realised that the reality of it is logging on, looking at the last date I posted and thinking “fuck, I should really write something today”.
Waiting around for inspiration to strike is not working out in my favour.
When it does strike, I have to smash out a whole post in one go because it’s already been too long since my last post. I’m compromising on quality by writing and editing too quickly because I just want to get the damn thing out.
It’s also problematic because while one might not feel inspired every day or even every week, some people go monthsor longer without feeling the pinch of inspo. Also known as, writer’s block.
It’s not sustainable to keep a writing practice based solely on inspiration and motivation. Writing is discipline.
Lucky for me, I’ve discovered a totally ground-breaking handy tool which is going to transform my blogging.
The Drafts Folder
You read that correctly.
I am talking about my WordPress blog’s drafts folder. I’m not sure why, but until yesterday, I hadn’t utilised it.
Every piece I’ve posted so far has been an off-the-cuff idea which I’ve written all at once and posted an hour later.
I can’t keep doing this because a) I want my writing to be well-thought-out, planned and researched, b) I don’t come up with ingenious ideas often enough and c) I want my writing practice to be regular, structured and rewarding.
Now, as for my ground-breaking tool, it’s not just the drafts folder. The important and effective aspect of this tool is the act of brain-dumping ideas into the drafts folder.
What’s a brain-dump?
Exactly what it sounds like. Brain-dumping is the process of regurgitating all the ideas, thoughts and feelings swimming around in your head onto a page, into a book or, in this case, into your drafts folder.
Open a draft post, write the item as the headline, then save it and open the next one.
There’s only one rule: don’t stop ’til you’re done.
Get all that uncensored, unedited shit out of there, whether it be content ideas, undone tasks on your to-do list, concepts you’ve been mulling over or the argument you had with your sister last week that’s still bothering you.
None of this “oh I won’t write that one down because it wouldn’t make an interesting blog post” crap. Get. It. All. Out.
Stories are lurking everywhere, even in seemingly mundane daily shit. One of your items might be that you need to take the trash out because the bin is overflowing. This might lend itself to a piece on procrastination.
That argument with your sister might provide the foundations of a post about holding grudges and forgiveness.
Once you’ve got it all out, organise.
There should now be an overwhelming number of drafts in your folder, each with a headline relating to an item you just purged from your brain.
Do any of them have potential? Jot down your ideas in a bullet-point list inside the draft. Here’s a sneak-peek of one of mine, so you can see what I mean:
Any items you don’t think you can make ANYTHING out of, cull.
I did this process yesterday and I now have a whopping 28 items in my drafts folder and a grand total of zero excuses as to why I can’t write a post on a more regular and consistent basis.
What tools do you use to keep your blogging consistent? I would love to know in the comments below!
When I was about 10 years old, my parents got divorced.
My mum took on the primary caregiver role, and my dad – who had been somewhat absent for many years while he built his business – started to make a real effort to become an active part of my and my brother’s lives.
In an attempt to bond, every Tuesday night my dad would take us to a family friends house, where we would eat dinner with them and watch Survivor.
During our meal, we played a game called “Good Day, Bad Day”.
It’s pretty simple: each diner would take turns in telling the rest of the table what the best part of their day was, and what the worst part of their day was.
This Tuesday evening ritual was instrumental in the rebuilding of our relationship with our awesome dad. I cherish those memories to this day.
After a couple of years, we stopped going to this friend’s house for dinner, and we stopped watching Survivor. But we never stopped playing “Good Day, Bad Day”.
This is a game I have carried with me through life. I introduce it to almost everyone I meet.
It’s applicable to almost every situation. I recently went on a trip to Japan with two of my closest girlfriends, and every day we would play “Good Japan, Bad Japan” over dinner.
Now that we’re in iso, I’ve shared the game with my colleagues and we have a dedicated Zoom meeting at 4:30pm every day, specifically to play this game.
In a day and age where the power of positive thinking is promoted left right and centre, it feels odd to encourage people to share what they perceived to be the worst part of their day.
But there’s a sort of beauty in the worst things, isn’t there?
In my opinion, the darker moments make the bright ones even brighter. When we complain about how we were so busy at work that we skipped eating lunch, it’s a quick reminder to how lucky we are to still have a job.
A happy phone call from a friend we’ve been missing outshines the annoyance that our delivery was delayed.
It sucks that my dance classes have been shut down. But it means I have more quality time to spend with my mum.
This idea of permanent positive thinking doesn’t sit so well with me; it’s normal to have tough times, unpleasant emotions and bad days.
Without them, how can we appreciate the good ones?
Drop a comment below and let me know your ‘Good Day, Bad Day’ for today!
I haven’t written anything or even opened my blog in a few days.
For the past week I’ve downed almost a whole bottle of red wine per night.
Something’s gotta change.
In the first four weeks of iso I was loving every bit of it. Here’s what was working:
I was up at 6:30am every morning for a 40 min walk
I was completing my Spanish lesson during this walk
I was following a strict keto diet and feeling fantastic (and losing weight)
I was going for a run on my lunch breaks
I was doing 2 x HIIT sessions per week
I was avoiding Netflix
I was drinking 2L of water every day
I was drinking 0L of alcohol every day
If you’ve been following along at home, I fell off this super-healthy-active-productive lifestyle wagon and it’s all gone to shit since then. The catalyst was Easter.
Following Easter, here’s where things started to go wrong:
I threw my low carb way of eating out the window and ate my weights-worth of chocolate over the space of 4 days
The poor weather deterred me from going outside and I started to sleep in instead of get up for a walk
The absence of my morning walks meant I stopped completing my Spanish lessons
I had a glass of champagne to celebrate my mums birthday and that first glass tipped me over the edge of sobriety, inciting a new evening ritual of emptying the contents of a full bottle of Pinot Noir
I realised Community had moved onto Netflix and decided to re-watch the entire 6 seasons of the show
Good behaviours encourage more good behaviours, and vice versa.
When I was eating well and exercising more, all I wanted to keep doing was eating well and exercising. I had no interest in wine or Netflix, because my active lifestyle encouraged me to keep moving.
That first glass of vino and first bite of chocolate should have been fine in moderation. But due to a number of other household stress factors, it was all too easy for me to slip into couch-potato-getting-lit-while-binging-Netflix mode.
Every day that I don’t go on my morning walk, the harder it is to get up to do it the next day.
‘I’ll stop eating sugar tomorrow and restart my good diet’, I’ve told myself every day for the past two weeks.
But I won’t be saying it tomorrow.
Tomorrow I WILL get up for my morning walk. I’ll do my Spanish lesson, eat a healthy breakfast and squeeze in a run at lunch.
And so on and so forth with all my other previous healthy habits.
Because I have a rebound plan.
It’s painfully simple, actually. In fact, it’s already half-done.
My rebound plan consists of two parts: isolate what worked, and find a way to make it even easier to do.
For Part 1, please refer to the list above which was preceded by “Here’s what was working”.
Now Part 2 is just a collection of simple actions I can take to make it easier to perform the item in Part 1. Or, harder to avoid performing it. Example:
What worked: Getting up at 6:30am for a 40 min walk
Make it easier: Lay my socks and shoes out the night before and wear my gym clothes to bed.
The biggest excuse I’m peddling as to why I haven’t been able to get up for my walk is that its too cold to get out of bed and change into my clothes. If I wear them to bed, I’ve removed the obstacle of being too cold while changing into my clothes (aka, making it harder for myself to avoid going for my walk). Simples.
Here are the rest of my good habits which I plan to reinstate:
What worked: Eating a keto/low carb high fat diet
Make it easier: Don’t buy crap when grocery shopping. Meal prep all meals for the week on Sunday. Bake sugar-free treats to satisfy the sweet cravings. Track my macros on the MyFitnessPal App.
What worked: Going for a run on my lunch breaks
Make it easier: The meal-prepped lunches from the item above means I don’t have to spend any of my break time cooking. Stay in my gym clothes from my morning walk so that I’m already dressed for the run.
What worked: Doing 2 x HIIT sessions a week
Make it easier: Plan the session out on a whiteboard the night before & video it and send to a friend so they know I’ve done it.
What worked: Avoiding Netflix
Make it easier: The obvious answer would be to deactivate my account. Unfortunately this is not feasible as my Mum also uses the account. Instead, install Limit – a Chrome browser extension which allows you to set time limits to specific sites.
What worked: Drinking 2L of water per day
Make it easier: Mark my 2L water bottle with targets for certain times throughout the day. Set an alarm for each of these times and drink to the corresponding mark when it goes off, if I haven’t already reached it.
In a not-so-shocking turn of events, I’ve gone from loving every inch of iso to feeling pretty flat.
There are a few big ticket items which have spurred on this turnaround. It’s been a bit over a week of feeling down, and there are only so many days in a row that I can deploy a ‘Shit Day’ self-care routine and enjoy it.
I reflected on my mood today and realised that it’s not just the bigger picture stuff which have caused me to feel this way. There are so many little things that I miss from ‘normal life’, which I didn’t even realise I missed until now.
I miss barista-made strong almond milk lattes.
After-work drinks with colleagues, lunchtime kitchen chats.
Just going to the office in general.
I never thought I’d say this, but I miss my 30 minute commute on the tram, losing myself in a true crime podcast as the world rushes to work around me.
I miss the smell and sound of the beach.
I miss curling up in the corner of a cosy cafe to write.
I miss perusing my local bookstore at a leisurely pace.
I miss reading in the park.
I miss my morning pilates classes, and my evening pole dancing classes.
I miss my pole studio waiting room, where I’ve spent countless hours talking shit with my classmates and the studio owners.
And playing with their huge German Shepherd, Kaos.
I miss girls nights in, drinking homemade cocktails and watching crap movies.
I miss big nights out, catching up with friends I haven’t seen in a while.
Wow, I haven’t seen ANYONE in a long while.
I miss getting dressed in something other than pyjamas or activewear.
I miss getting dressed up to go out. I never wear makeup unless I’m going out; I’m usually not that interested in putting it on. I miss putting it on.
I miss the excitement I used to feel from planning my Big Trip to South America. I haven’t really discussed this in detail yet, perhaps I will in my next post. The short version is that for the beginning of 2021, I planned on heading to Central & South America on a one-way ticket to live and work and practice my Spanish.
I don’t know when that will happen now.
I miss deep, free-flowing conversations. It’s not the same through a screen.
It’s not the same with 10 people trying to talk over the top of each other. There’s no conversational etiquette for Zoom calls, is there?
I miss my morning drive to the tram stop, listening to my local radio station. My god the morning show crew are hilarious.
I miss writing plans into my diary.
I miss having plans to write into my diary.
I miss window shopping for things I don’t need and can’t afford to buy.
I miss coming home to my cats at the end of the day. I get to spend all day with them now, which of course I love. But theres this little magic kind of joy that I experience when they sprint to the door as I arrive home after a long day.
I miss having long days.
They all seem to fly by now. I blink and another day is over, having achieved nothing of great importance. The days roll into weeks and the weeks roll into months – I feel like I’m watching my life flash before my eyes.
I miss having conversations with my mum about things other than the virus, or how hard it is for her to teach from home.
I miss having conversations with people other than my mum.
It’s this long list of little things that I miss, that’s really getting me down right now. What are the little things you’re missing? Let me know in the comments below.
There are many contributing factors: the weather, the uncertainty of my job security, my increasingly anxious and difficult-to-manage mother, my headphones are broken (this last point probably seems minor, but it means I can no longer complete my Spanish lessons and am unable to listen to music or podcasts on my walks/runs. Which means I’m not really walking/running anymore).
People the world over are dealing with shit days, many of them much shitter than mine. I am so incredibly lucky that my woes aren’t overly serious but regardless – I can’t help how I’m feeling right now.
What I CAN do, is treat the fuck out of myself with some self-care.
Step 1: DIY Day Spa
When I DIY Day Spa, I go all out. Think multi-layered haircare regime, deep cleanse and nourishment of my face and body, bubble-bath with a good book and just the right combo of essential oils.
Theres nothing like a fresh set of locks to lift my mood.
It’s ultra-hydrating. It’s revitalising. It’s cruelty-free. It’s the best goddamn Kris-Kringle present I’ve ever received.
Once it’s dried off and brushed through, my mop is brighter, bouncier and shinier. I might feel shit, but at least my hair looks fab.
Next – the bubble bath of your dreams
I’m talking scorching hot. I’m talking red wine. I’m talking essential oils to set your soul on fire. I’m talking LUX-UR-Y.
First of all, let me say this: if you can draw yourself a steaming hot bath and pour yourself a glass of fine red wine (or a glass of $5-$10 red wine, either will work) then that’s all you really need at the crux of it.
However, if you have access to good quality essential oils, a Spotify Premium account and any book by Louise L Hay, you have hit the motherlode of all good baths my friend.
Lavender, frankincense and rose are my favourite combo of essential oils for a ‘Shit Day’ bath. Essential oil devotees will tell you that you need bath salts to help disperse them but this is a load of BS. Ain’t nobody got time for acquiring bath salts, so if you’ve got oils, just drop those suckers straight in.
I find baking to be a deeply therapeutic activity, and also I have an unquenchable sweet tooth.
This is a fantastic combination when I’m having a ‘Shit Day’.
If you’ve never tried baking, hear me out. I never used to like it either. But since I’ve realised that I can cook myself healthy, guilt-free treats which satisfy my sweet cravings and also boost my mood, I’ve never looked back.
They’re sugar-free, low-carb, and they only take 10 minutes to make. Also – they only make 5 cookies. So when the Shit Day hits, you can whip ’em up in no time and devour the whole lot without feeling bad about it.
Again – sugar-free and low-carb. Taste like heaven and you can top them with berries, maple syrup, chocolate sauce and a load of other feel-good ingredients. Also take no time to make and you can smash them in one go.
They’re a little more complicated and time-consuming to make, but these healthy, home-made Ferrero Rochers are TO DIE FOR.
Anyone who tells you they don’t like Ferrero Rochers are liars and I won’t hear another word about it. If you’re experiencing the all-encompassing feels of a ‘Shit Day’ then carve out a couple of hours to make these.
Step 3: An electric blanket, a Netflix account and a coupla cats.
So simple, yet effective.
NOTHING makes me feel better than my two ginger pussy-cats, Charlie and Clarrie.
A close second is my electric blanket, which somewhat emulates the warmth I get from my pussy-cats when they snuggle either side of me.
And coming in last but not least, is a good (or awful) TV show which I just cannot seem to turn off. Over the years the TV shows which have graced my Netflix screen on a ‘Shit Day’ have included The Office, Gilmore Girls, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, Money Heist, Community, Pretty Little Liars, The 100 and Sense8 just to name a few.
I know there’s this whole movement of “get up and exercise!”, “kick goals and eat well!” and “look after your health!” which have monopolised the self-care market recently but if I know one thing it’s this: when you feel like fucking shit and just need a day to chill, nothing beats Netflix in bed with your cats.
What do you do to lift your spirits on a ‘Shit Day’? Let me know in the comments below!
Ah, the Keto Diet. The somewhat controversial diet which flips the food pyramid on it’s head and tells you to eat way more of all the things you’ve been told you shouldn’t your whole life.
I was introduced to the concept of the Ketogenic Diet by a colleague at work – a pretty nondescript guy in his 50’s – about two years ago. A few months after starting at this job, I noticed him heating up his lunch in the kitchen one day.
It was a plate of meat. As in, a plate entirely made up of meat, with not a single vegetable or condiment.
I enquired about his strange choice of meal – he laughed, and said “I haven’t shown you my ‘before photos’ have I?”
He whipped out his phone and before I knew it I was looking at a picture of him from 12 months prior. I was looking at a picture of genuinely one of the most obese people I had ever seen.
He went on to explain that he had lost ALL of this weight within a 12 month period just by eating keto. No gruelling workout regime or fat-loss products – simply eating mostly fats and restricting his carb intake to less than 20 grams per day.
Okay, interest piqued. I started to read up on the whole concept and my research uncovered quite a lot of reputable sources (scientists, qualified nutritionists and dieticians) providing evidence-based claims (clinical trials, case studies, medical journal reports) about the magic of eating low carb, high/healthy fat. I won’t bother hashing out this evidence here, but if you’re interested in reading up on how this way of eating works, I highly recommend picking up a copy of What the Fat? by Dr Caryn Zinn, Professor Grant Schofield and Craig Rodger.
According to these sources, this way of eating is not only a surefire way to lose weight fast, but also help increase mental clarity, maintain steady energy levels, regulate insulin levels and improve sleep among other exciting things.
Here’s the thing though – it requires a degree of discipline, ability to plan ahead and time-management to eat this way. All of which I usually do not have.
Fast forward to the middle of March 2020. We’ve just gone into lock-down. There’s no way for me to “forget my lunch at home” and buy McDonalds on my break instead. I have infinitely more time to plan my meals and cook them. So, I decide to finally give it a shot.
Here’s what worked
I lost 3 kilograms in 4 weeks
I’m a healthy weight for my height and age, so weight-loss is not necessarily a goal for me. However, 2019 was a particularly difficult year for me, and over the course of that year I managed to gain an unwanted 10kg. Shaving off 3 of those is definitely a bonus.
I had boundless physical energy
I was a little skeptical about this claim: keto-dieters the world over rave about how much energy they have after adapting to a fat-fuelled diet.
I can honestly say that I have never had this much energy. I was leaping out of bed at 6:30am, going for a 40-minute walk, jogging or working out on my lunch break and going for another hour-long walk at sunset.
I stopped snacking almost entirely
Another benefit of eating more fat with each meal is that you feel fuller for longer. I’m a chronic snacker at the best of times and my sweet tooth usually has me reaching for chocolate and the like. During the month I ate strictly keto, my sugar cravings were completely diminished and I never felt the need to eat in between meals.
Here’s what didn’t work (or won’t, when iso is over)
I don’t love meat.
At my core, I’m not a meat-eater. Over the years, I’ve had periods of time where I’ve been vegetarian or even completely vegan.
Meat products are high in fat and low in carbs, so they generally make up a large proportion of many keto-eaters’ diets. While there are other healthy fats to pad your diet with like avocados, healthy oils and nuts, it’s harder to hit your fat content for the day with these alone.
I fell off the wagon, and boy was it a slippery slope after that
My one month keto-versary coincided with Easter. I had decided that after four successful weeks of avoiding sugar and other empty carbs, dropping 3 kilos and ramping up my exercise, I deserved a little break.
This treat involved a LOT of Easter chocolate. Hot-cross buns. More chocolate.
Since I’ve already broken my keto today with chocolate, why not have pasta for dinner?
Toast with Nutella for brekkie the next morning. More chocolate.
Sugar-cravings came rushing back and I put one of those kilos back on. I went back to snacking, my energy levels dropped again and I wasn’t exercising anywhere near as much.
What I’ve realised is this: for me personally, I can’t treat myself. I can’t break the discipline. Because once I fall off the wagon, I can’t get back on.
I’m only able to make it work when I’m preparing all of my own food
And this will be infinitely harder when iso is over. I currently have an extra two hours every day when I would usually be commuting to and from work. I can’t leave the house aside for my walks. I have SO MUCH TIME to plan, prepare and cook my food.
When normal life resumes, I won’t have this luxury. I often get home from work and Mum has already made dinner for me. I go to bed exhausted and forget to make my lunch for the next day, so on my break I have to buy fast-food.
I genuinely enjoyed my flirtation with keto and the way it made me feel. I think what I’ve realised though, is that I don’t yet possess the discipline and willpower to make this a permanent lifestyle choice.
Are you a keto-eater? I would love to hear about your journey (or any tips on how to keep it up) in the comments below!